I recently received a haircut only to find that some of my hair had fallen out. How could this happen to a newly minted thirty year-old?
Upon reflection, I realized that I had set myself up for something to fail. Over spring (which seemed like an extended winter) I had focused all of my attention on school and a few non-profit activities, leaving little time for myself or my relationships. I worked early mornings and would have meetings late into the evening. And I was always telling myself I should do more.
Just before the semester had ended is when I got my hair cut and realized something had to change. If that wasn't enough, I also suffered from bronchitis for two long months. My body in its infinite wisdom literally showed me that I had lost control of my own life.
What I have learned is that I have to let go. I have to let go of all of the self-imposed anxiety about school and about time. I have to let go of self-criticism condemning the greatness that I am as I am. And I have to let go of unrealistic expectations that go unmet and contribute to the downward spiral of self hatred.
I am who I am and I am going to love myself for my gifts and my faults.
And I encourage you to do the same.