Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Letting Go...

I recently received a haircut only to find that some of my hair had fallen out. How could this happen to a newly minted thirty year-old?

Upon reflection, I realized that I had set myself up for something to fail. Over spring (which seemed like an extended winter) I had focused all of my attention on school and a few non-profit activities, leaving little time for myself or my relationships. I worked early mornings and would have meetings late into the evening. And I was always telling myself I should do more.

Just before the semester had ended is when I got my hair cut and realized something had to change. If that wasn't enough, I also suffered from bronchitis for two long months. My body in its infinite wisdom literally showed me that I had lost control of my own life.

What I have learned is that I have to let go. I have to let go of all of the self-imposed anxiety about school and about time. I have to let go of self-criticism condemning the greatness that I am as I am. And I have to let go of unrealistic expectations that go unmet and contribute to the downward spiral of self hatred.

I am who I am and I am going to love myself for my gifts and my faults.

And I encourage you to do the same.

2 comments:

do not fall for a man who is in love with whoever he is with, when he is not with you. said...
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rosas blancas para el La Virgen Morena said...

i will :-) let's go build a better world. God bless you and in everything you do.